Entry 4: "Don't beat yourself up over the holidays - Awareness of Fat Talk"
We live in a society brimming with Fat Talk. “Do I look fat in this?”… “Look at this gut!”… “Ugh, I hate my thighs!” These are all comments you have likely heard too many times, whether it be from your mother, father, a teacher, a friend, a sister, a brother, or that evil internal voice that likes to bring you down a notch the moment you start feeling good about yourself. We all engage in Fat Talk, in some form. Many of us engage in Fat Talk as part of our daily routine. And, not surprisingly, it leaves us feeling pretty bad about not just what we look like, but who we are.
Where does this Language of Fat come from? Go stand in line at the grocery store and you will be bombarded with a major perpetuator of society’s beauty obsession: the media. I took a break from writing this entry for you just to Google today’s latest news headlines in the entertainment world. Here we have it: “Kris Humphries Called Kim Kardashian Fat;” “Jessica Simpson in for 4 Million Dollar Weight Watcher’s Deal;” “Kate Gosselin Gets a Facelift” … like, seriously? The media bombards us with messages everyday that translate to this: if you are not beautiful, you are not worthy. Sadly, as a society, we have internalized this message.
Sandra Friedman, in her book entitled Nurturing Girlpower, has coined the term “grungie” to describe the negative voice that we have developed in response to our overwhelming desire, as a society, to be beautiful. “Grungies” are the negative things we tell ourselves about ourselves. They commonly appear in the form of “you are fat” or “you are stupid” or “you are ugly.” Underneath these statements are real feelings; when we do not know how to express ourselves or are too frightened to do so, we shift our focus from our internal needs to our external image. We turn to our Language of Fat.
Take, for example, the simple phrase, “I feel fat.” Feeling fat is quite different from being fat. Thin people feel fat and fat people feel fat. Nobody feels fat all the time. If someone felt fine at 5:00 pm and felt fat at 6:15 pm, that change that occurred was not physical; it was emotional (Friedman, p. 50).
Why do we do it? There are many motivations behind this tendency and individual answers may vary. One commonality, however, exists amongst Fat Talkers and it is related to our natural tendency as human beings to fear the unknown. Feelings are deep, unseen, and can be pretty difficult to figure out. Our appearance, however, is superficial, quite visible, and is rather easily manipulated. Why make yourself feel better by dragging yourself through emotional wreckage when you can simply book a hair appointment, buy a new shirt, and band-aid it all up?
I have a good reason: band-aids fall off.
Through ignoring our internal needs and focusing our efforts on our appearance, while we do achieve temporary relief, it is just that – temporary. Our internal needs will resurface, our external fix will wear off (or out), and we will find ourselves right back at (minus) square one… now adding frustration and a sense of hopelessness to the mix.
So here are the two messages that I am hoping you are interpreting from my rant.
First, it is crucial that we learn to challenge media messages that promote not only an unrealistic beauty ideal but self-depreciation and self-hatred. Secondly, it is absolutely necessary that, on a personal level, you learn to identify your tendency towards Fat Talk and refrain from covering your emotional experience with expensive clothing and bronzer.
Quote of the Day
What you do, the way you think, makes you beautiful.
~ Scott Westerfeld
Friedman, S. (2003). Nurturing Girlpower. Vancouver, B.C.: Salal Books.
Entry 3: It Is Okay to Hurt
I think you can agree that we all live in a society that adores speed and ease. In other words, let’s get things done quickly and let’s do so in the simplest way we know how. Seems like a good idea… right? I mean, why read the novel when you can buy the Coles notes? Why exercise when you can get liposuction? Why prepare a healthy meal when you can stop at McDonalds? When faced with life’s obstacles, we, as a society, prefer simple answers that require as little effort as possible on our part. As it turns out, we approach our emotions in a similar manner.
Here are a couple of interesting facts for you:
Now I hope all of you critical thinkers out there acknowledge that many confounding variables may have played a role in this increase – population growth, revisions of diagnostic criteria, etc. Nonetheless, it is a staggering statistic and one must wonder if our tendency, as a society, towards the “quick fix” may have been a contributing factor to the sky-rocketing statistic.
What we are observing here is a concept that has been termed the medicalization of sadness – pathologizing emotions that are within the healthy range of human experience. Wakefield and Horwitz, in their book entitled, The Loss of Sadness, proposed three essential components of normal sadness: context-specificity, intensity proportionate to loss, and the tendency for the sadness to end once the situation resolves. These authors have argued that, historically, pathological sadness was separated from normal sadness based on these three criteria. Since then, with the focus of the diagnostic manual emphasizing symptomology over context, we are seeing what Wakefield and Horwitz identify as a “bogus” epidemic of pseudo-depression. Because being sad is rather unpleasant and we, as a society, prefer simple solutions to our problems, is it possible that we are becoming quick to jump on the medication band-wagon as opposed to accepting emotions for what they really are – healthy expressions of our day-to-day experiences?
What I am trying to say here is this: It is okay to be sad. It is okay to hurt sometimes.
There are many positive coping mechanisms that can be implemented in times of sadness that may help you begin the process of healing. Interact with others; isolation promotes depression. Go for a walk; release some of that negative energy. Talk to someone; social support is a necessary pre-requisite for a healthy mind. Journal; writing is therapeutic. Punch something (like a pillow – not your brother); release your unpleasant feelings!
I have adopted an evolutionary perspective on the emotional experience; emotions are functional adaptations that exist because they were of benefit to our ancestors. If certain emotions were not functional, natural selection would have weeded them out many generations ago. We feel unpleasant emotions at times because they are providing us information about our surroundings and allow us to act accordingly.
With this being said, depression is a very real disorder that exists due to a combination of biological, psychological, and social factors. If your sadness is prolonged and you are experiencing any of the following symptoms, you should schedule an appointment with your school counsellor or family physician:
**If you have had thoughts of suicide, it is important that you seek help IMMEDIATELY. While feelings of sadness are within the range of normal human experience, thoughts of death or suicide are not and are indicative of a Major Depressive Disorder.
Contact number for Children and Adolescent Crisis Line: 780-427-3390
Quote of the Week:
Feelings are not supposed to be logical. Dangerous is the man who has rationalized his emotions.
~ David Borenstein
Entry 2: Changing Distorted Thoughts
I know you are all patiently awaiting the answer to the cliff-hanging question I left you with last time. I am going to keep you waiting only a few moments longer so I can quickly review what we discussed.
We learned that the individual who says, “He made me so mad!” is plain wrong. While we are not denying his anger, we are arguing against the assertion that someone made him angry. No person or event makes us feel any specific way. It is the thoughts we have (our self-talk) that causes us to feel one way or another. In other words, the only person that is responsible for how you feel is YOU.
So, how do you change how you think? I have met many clients that, when faced with the daunting task of altering maladaptive thought patterns, slump to the back of their chair, cross their arms, and claim, “I cannot possibly change how I think. This is how I am. This is how I have always been.” Well guess what? These people, too, are wrong! While I will acknowledge that their distorted thought patterns have likely plagued their lives for an extended period of time, the pervasiveness of these thoughts speaks not at all to their permanency. Distorted thinking is a learned process; similarly, it can be unlearned.
The first and CRUCIAL step is to BE AWARE OF IT. You may have heard the saying, “You cannot change what you choose not to acknowledge.” When you stop attempting to attribute the cause of your unpleasant feelings to an external source, you take back the control over these feelings. You now have the power to change them!
So, where to begin? You can start by creating a mood log. When you are feeling upset, write down how you feel. Write down the upsetting event and then write down the thoughts that were going through your head immediately following the event. You will, over time, begin to notice a pattern in how you think. You will begin to notice how this pattern directly results in how you feel on a daily basis.
As I have mentioned before, we all practice self-talk continuously throughout our day. These voices are automatic and tell us about our world. Things happen in our lives that affect what our voices tell us about our surroundings. It might be a negative experience, it might be the result of the way you were raised, it might be due to physiological mechanisms that are beyond your control. Many factors alter our stories in ways that can be both negative and positive.
When factors affect our thinking in a negative manner and we continue to employ these negative thought patterns, they begin to replace our previously existing automatic thoughts. We call these Cognitive Distortions. David Burns, in his book entitled “The Feeling Good Handbook” (1989), identified 10 common cognitive distortions that individuals most often employ in their daily lives. I encourage you to have a look over them. I have a feeling you may be able to identify more than one distorted thought pattern that you have fallen victim to at one time or another:
Your homework for this week: When you are feeling upset, ask yourself what is going on in your head to make you feel this way. Then, take this thought and see if you are able to place it into anyone of the categories of negative thoughts. Lastly, try to re-write that thought in a way that is both realistic and more positive. Please, do not give up! You did not learn distorted thought patterns overnight and you will not learn to untwist these thought patterns overnight, either!
Best of luck!
Quote of the Week:
“A man is but the product of his thoughts. What he thinks, he becomes.”
- Mahatma Gandhi